Karl's Blog

A friend I write to about masturbation has written a blog on how he became the addicted masturbator he is today. Karl asked me if I would post what he says here, and I am happy to do that.
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"I will only write about my early masturbation experiences. I was at a boarding school at 8, so discovered the pleasures of mutual fondling.  However just before I left the school for good when I was 11, I saw one of my friends stroking his own hard cock.  Shortly after at home I tried the same thing, sliding the skin up and down my hard cock and loved it, but nothing happened.  A few weeks later I carried on until whoof… I had an enormous orgasm, my cock went limp and I was sore at the end for days.  I hadn’t clue what it was about, but, yes you’ve guessed, I tried again and this time it was lovely.  From that day on I couldn’t stop.  When I was 12 I tried to give up as I was feeling guilty after I had come, and managed about 3 weeks.  Then the need overcame me again and I started once more.  

Even though I had started again in my early teens, I used to be driven mad by masturbation, trying to say “no” each time, but as my resistance increased so did the desire in my cock as it got harder and harder, until after about half an hour or more of resisting I was driven mad and “gave in” and had a wonderful relief followed by guilt.  Then slowly over the years I began to resist less, so that when I felt the need for sexual relief I masturbated without worrying about it, but always with some guilt feeling afterwards.  However at that time I was using masturbation to get sexual relief, so I was usually fantasising about sex with someone else, usually one of the girls I kew.  However I couldn’t do without masturbating and by the time I was in my 20s was averaging about 3 times a day. 

I am not gay, and when I began masturbating in my very early teens all I could think of was different fantasies, mainly about fucking girls I fancied. In other words in my fantasies I wasn’t actually masturbating, I was indulging in whatever the fantasy happened to be. It was like that for a long time, especially after I started fucking girls for real. I needed to masturbate to get relief and I still fantasised about fucking girls, looking at different porn to help my fantasies. 

However slowly I found I had sessions where I did not fantasise, but my mind emptied of thoughts and fantasies, and I relaxed back and focussed more on my body and the fabulous sensations I was experiencing and the gorgeous highs I got as I built up to ejaculating. That’s when I began to experiment with different routines, and to slow it down so I could enjoy it all for much longer. I then discovered not only did the sensations last for much longer but they were far more intense, and I was even getting quite high on cock so that was the only thing which existed, almost in a trance. I still found though that I was very frustrated if I couldn’t eventually ejaculate. 

Around that point I then discovered there were books and mags about masturbation and how to do it and improve it, which I got and began to study. Not only did I discover different techniques, but I found that reading about masturbation and looking at masturbation pics really turned me on to masturbate. More and more I found that, to me, masturbation was becoming a complete sex form in itself, and that often when I felt like sex, it was masturbation I wanted and not to fuck girls. I even found that after I had fucked a girl, I then had to masturbate later to become really satisfied. 

This continued slowly over the years, until quite suddenly, I realised not only was I chronically addicted to masturbation, but that I was a very serious masturbator, and that often it was masturbation I wanted rather than other forms of sex. I even found when I fantasised when masturbating they were masturbation fantasies involving both men and women masturbating rather than other sex. Along came the internet and I realised there many other serious masturbators out there (usually men) and that they felt the same as me. 

That’s where I got led into mutual masturbation (but nothing more than that), as I found that sharing masturbation with another masturbator who felt just the same increased the masturbation experience even more. Masturbating another cock is an incredible experience, you can feel it throbbing in your hand in a way you can’t with your own cock, and it’s wonderful seeing the other guy build up to a climax and then ejaculating Being masturbated by another guy who is a masturbation addict, too, is wonderful, especially realising the person doing it knows exactly what you are experiencing and what to do, especially as the sperm builds up before ejaculating. I’ve been masturbated by women many times but it is impossible for them to realise what is happening as they haven’t the relevant bits -- most I have experienced just bash away hoping I would come eventually."